Can't Hardly Wait

Well, I thought I'd put up a real quick post before I go to bed. (We're back on night shift again...booooo...but atleast it'll be cool, the temperature here is back up in the triple digits).

Y'all, I am really looking forward to coming home. I didnt realize how much that I took for granted back home...not huge things, just little things, like singing at the top of my lungs, (I'm all about some singing!) and going to church, (ok, ok, and going to church and singing at the top of my lungs :) And I dont think that I have to mention grass and trees...I'm not a tree hugger, but I do miss seeing green stuff! And Walmart, but if you know me, you know that's a given. And I cannot wait to be back in the kitchen in Johnston Woods in Cleveland!

So I've been thinking lately about life, because to be honest, I've been kindof down the past few days, maybe it's because I know that we're "cuttin' the links off our short timer's chain"-as my dad would say-and partly because I see where I am in life, and where I want to be, and the realization that I'm not there yet. See, I'm one of those who think that I should get things on the first try, that I should already be "there"...you know what I mean? Forget running the race, I should already be at the finish line. I dont know why, that's just the way it is. I'll be the first to tell you, that God has really been working on me since I've been here. And that's the biggest thing. I see where I am spiritually, and I know where I should be, and I'm not there. I know that He has called me to teach and counsel, but there's still so much that I dont know, and that's maybe part of this 'itchin' to be home. I'm ready to be back in a place where I can study, and ask questions, and learn, and be able to hear the Voice of the Lord without having to push through the mess and darkness that you have to get through here. So, I'm holding my breath, and counting down the days.

Also, please keep praying for my college application. Our postal system isnt very user friendly, and there's a chance that it'll come back to me AGAIN, in which case, I'll just have to wait to send it when I get back to the states. BUT I really feel like the Lord wants me in Texas, wants me in School, so I can finally do what He's called me to do.

Finally, so yall all know, we are still doing okay, just antsy about coming home, and we are all safe. I want all of you to know that your prayers mean sooo much. Once I'm home, I'll share a little more about 'here', I cant right now, though, because of security, but soon I will :)

love yall-

james

ps-when i get back home, the party's on!